A Facebook Encounter....!!!!!!

Morning hours are usually rush hours....but this particular morning Neha sat on her computer to log in and check her Face book account.....its been ages since she opened her profile......no particular reasons really for doing so today.....just something out of the routine since today time was on her side and it was not a rush hour......she looks through what she missed and who were there on her friend's list......and suddenly she sees some one online.....a person who had been on her list for a long long time but never had the opportunity to even exchange a hello and today with time in her hand she buzzed a hello and promptly a reply was sent......and then time flew for a while.....it was like catching on what ever was missed ......and then both had to leave as they had to  catch up with their day's activities.....goodbyes exchanged and a promise to get back.......Neha could not believe this.....but she was happy with the encounter.....the day was different all of a sudden......the sky never looked more blue.....the sun was never so bright.....she left and got on with her work impatiently waiting for the next hour when it would be possible to catch up...lots to talk .......boy since the last time they had met....but then, time and situation was different....today it was more a one to one talk....."sometimes the internet is a wonderland"......thought Neha........and silently thanked science.......and this was entered into her diary......but of course time would say if there would be more to fill up the other pages of her diary.....!!!!

Let It Go......!!!!!!

A beautiful writing given to me by a friend and am told its a passage based on Rev.21:5.I read it several times and thought this deserves a place on Nitusthots so that my friends can also read and appreciate these meaningful wordings.



" If you are holding to something that does not belong to you, and was never intended for you life........then you need to let it go.

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains......let it go.

If some one cannot treat you right , love you back and see your worth.....let it go.

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge........let it go.

If you have bad attitude, then ......let it go.

If you keep judging others to make yourself look better......let it go.

If you are stuck in the past, then........let it go.

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship, then.....let it go.

If you keep trying to help someone who will not help himself,then.....let it go.

If there is a particular situation that you have been so used to handling yourself and God is saying take your hands off it, then you need to........let it go.

Let the past be past,forget the former things,God is trying to do a new thing."

A Surprise Call.......!!!!!

The day started on a usual note for Maria.....5.10am the alarm goes.....a quick walk around her area....her first morning cup of tea that she so much looks forward to....a time that she spends alone.....preparing herself for a hectic day ahead....sometimes going back in time recalling those happy moments and at times also remembering some terrible memories that she brushes off in a hurry.....she sits in her balcony looking up towards the sky......would it be a sunny day ???? would it rain????.....all those thoughts in her alloted ten minutes and then its all over. The morning rush starts.....and by evening back home exhausted !!!! But last evening ended on a different note.....the ring of her cell phone brought her the biggest surprise.....it was a friend that she lost touch with.....they talked and she was actually touched when he took out his diary and read out what he wrote about her in the past months.....she was surprised to see that he thought her worthy enough to write about her and give her space in his diary.....or even remembered her in those long past months.....and as they keep the phone,promised to keep in touch now....she truely beleives in the saying that its not important how many waves are there in the sea.....what is important is how many waves touches the shore.....
And I believe in this too....we can have many friends in our life time......what is important....is how many of them touches your heart....!!!!! I thank all my dear friends who have stood by me and have made a difference in my life.

Emotionally Raped......!!!!!

Stealing a peep into Ananya's Diary.....

Ananya writes....

" The death of my soulmate....."

By death here I dont mean the literal meaning of death where a person stops breathing......I mean when a person whom you consider closer than your shadow is suddenly erased off from your life......for some reason that at the end of the day you are still reeling under the impact of it and wondering how and when did that bond just snap ???.....and the emotional blow that hits you , is may be worse than the nuclear bombs that hits humanity.An emotional turmoil that goes on in your mind.....where the nights seems endless....may be never to see day break again and a ghastly feeling in your gut that from now on you will be walking with out your shadow following you.....you suddenly find yourself naked and vunerable to the outside world......The stab at the back was so severe , that the soul has been wounded forever.... will it ever heal ?????
Ananya stands on the sea shore, recalling the events of the past year....and as she watches the big wave snatch away her soul mate forever from her.....not once did her mate looked back at her.....she stood alone speechless.....helpless....and lost......emotions all drained.....her soulmate died forever !!!!

Religion Debated.....!!!!!!

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Time and again people have debated on the issues of religion and now with the print and electronic media , we come to know more of the opinions of a cross section of people , both who have done extensive studies on the subject and also from the common crowd.
I obviously fall in the common people category....my thoughts and my views are simple and most ordinary. So recently when I was at a gathering, my colleagues were discussing everything from the Bharat Bandhs to the fast changing weather of Shillong to the recently concluded IPL and finally to the more recent NDTV program me by Barkha Dutt on Muslims. It didn't take long for the discussion which started on a casual manner to turn more personal....the " I-I....MY-MY " types. Verses from the Holy books were quoted and unquoted and I became a silent listener, till one of them asked my opinion. What could I say ??? How could I say that religion for me is humanity, that if I wanted to feel the presence of God and if I were to follow the popular belief that to pray we had to go to the holy shrines, I could walk into any temple or church or for that matter to a mosque if i was allowed to be with Him. Personally I absolutely believe and if I am allowed to quote here from a movie that there are only two types of people in this world , the good and the bad. Yes I believe in this very strongly. I believe that the world has two ends of everything....good people and the bad people....positive and negative.....right and the wrong.....You believe in the supreme power in what ever form you imagine Him in or you don't believe in Him at all.I either give 100% to you or I don't at all....I either do my work sincerely or if I don't feel like working today I take a day off.Everything for me is on either end of the pole....just like the sun sign I belong to....both the fishes facing to both extremes.
So religion for me is just a pathway to reach out to Him. I don't care much on how He looks or what His followers wears. I am deeply spiritual in my own way. I have equal respect for my Jew brother as much as I have for my Christian sister. I would wish Ed Mubarak to my Hindu friend and a Happy Diwali to my Muslim friend and I have great friends who would wish me back too.So am not able to understand the complexities of the word "Religion". I ask myself we all believe in One God, then why this fight about how I should seek Him ???? After a heated discussion I was once asked "what did your God do for you ????" Goodness what is your God and my God???? I was much younger then,just out of school. I didn't have the maturity to take such a question in a diplomatic way. So I came home and cried and thought how dare some one asks me a question like that??? Today I would have laughed at the same question because today I stand more firm in my belief and I know He is my Potter while I am the clay in His Hand. He molded me and this is where I stand today.
My colleague snap me off my thoughts and I just look at them and say nothing. I say goodnight and take my leave along with my views.

( This post is dedicated to a friend of mine whom I had met 3 yrs ago on this day whom I believe is the one person who would understand me on this . )

A Page From A Diary.......!!!!!!

Dated Forever...... My days with Pooh !!!!

Pooh and I met by chance....one of those things in life that just happens with no explanations. You could call it destiny. Our friendship initially saw all the highs and all the lows ......and many a times it lay threatened on the brink of a breakdown following a stormy session of arguement. But we would come out of it....and on my part emerge even stronger with the bond growing even deeper.....and before long Pooh became an inseparable part of me and my life.....a friend sent in by God himself.....the one person I had always thirst for and so needed. I share the most amazing connectivity......call it a mental connection. I could hear....see....smell....touch.....and feel my friend even if thousands of miles stretch in between us. My day started and ended with Pooh.....my world was Pooh....my dreams were of Pooh. Such was my passion, loyalty and dedication involved in our friendship. We would laugh, cry , fight and then make up again. Days rolled out into months and months into years. I was happy in my small world and wanted nothing more. The more I gave in the friendship....the less it was I thought.....I needed to give more. It was the best phase of my life.....for I had a friend by my side, standing with me.....ONLY FOR ME. Then one day, a dark cloud , suddenly appeared on a beautiful bright blue sky.....threatening a down pour. I could feel the ground slipping from under my feet as I struggled to stand on my shaky legs ....tears rolled down my cheek.......I could see the dark cloud embracing Pooh.
As I stood and watched .....I was left with only one question in my mind ......What did I do to deserve this ???????

Broken Fragments.....!!!!!!

The phone rang and the most ordinary day, turned an extra-ordinary one for her. She heard the voice , on the other end saying " I am here ! ". Her legs gave way . Was it really true ?!!!! Well it was and the next 24 hrs passed away faster then the blink of her eye lashes. So much to say.....so much to talk about.........but time was too short. Before long, it was time to part. As she stood waving a good bye, she felt a part of her lost forever.......... tears came down with out a warning........ she sat down to pick up the broken fragments of her heart.......!!!!!!

Friendship Defined......!!!!!

Friendship so beautifully defined ,I had to share it here, because its what I believe in........

If I happen to show up on your door step crying
Would you care ?
If I called you and asked you to pick me up because something happened
Would you come ?
If I had one day left, to live my life
Would you be part of that last day ?
If I needed a shoulder to cry on
would you give me yours?
Do you know what is the relationship in between your two eyes?
They blink together, they move together, they cry together, they see things together and they sleep together
But they never see each other.
That is what friendship is....!!!!!
Life would be lonely without Friends.......!!!!!

Broken Glass......!!!!!!

I was looking at this glass piece and thought what a waste..... how ever hard you try to mend it........nothing will work , unless you change it........the crack remains forever. Though fragile , it can also be protective in more ways than one...... and people have always compared a human relationship with that of a glass ........and rightly so........because just as we need to handle a glass with care , so also we need to handle a relationship.....(how ever way you name it)........with utmost care. Ever since man has lived in society , he has learnt to build up relations with fellow beings ........some personal.....some not but never the less , a relation or a connection of some sort. In our life time , we get to meet many people, some come and go and yet some touch your lives in a way that you don't have a reason to explain why and how did it happen.......it just happens and before long you start thinking its one of the connections you just cannot do without.......and yes its connection like these that needs to be nurtured with love and care because once its broken.......it can be mended but the crack remains forever. I treasure my connection.....because many a times it has shown me light when there was darkness........and I thank Him for being so generous. !!!!

Time......!!!!!

The question What is Time ??? has been debated for many generations. Science has its own definition in physics but philosophically , many argue that time is not a reality but a concept and may be an illusion.
I have often wondered too what could it really be. We wear it in our hands and yet we cannot hold it as it passes by and slowly slips away into eternity......and its amazing that as we look at the clock, the eternity is actually determined by the movements of the hour and second hands. Each second would turn into minutes .......and each minute would turn into hours .....finally into weeks , months and years. A four letter word that rules mankind and human civilization.....generation after generation......over which no one has control or can have a say . For a next door person like me .......I could easily classify time into good times and bad times..... times of anticipation......times of anguish...... time as a healer......times when I wished the clock would stop because I did not want those beautiful moments to end.......and again times when I wished the hands on my wrist watch would gallop away .....!!!! People would say , her/his time is good or bad meaning astrologically unfavourable........but then isn't that God's way of teaching us all the experiences of life, from which we could emerge a much more wiser and better human.????? I, like most of us, have often stood the test of time......and yes I have tried to come out from it stronger and may be also try to evolve into a better human......but one thing I firmly believe in, is you cannot stop time......what is to happen would happen any way...... So what do we do???? Flow with time......and let time decide for us.????

Tears.......!!!!!!

One aspect of humans way of expressing emotions is through tears.......we see tears of joy and tears of sorrow, we see loud tears and silent tears. But for what ever reason our eyes fills up and we shed a tear, one thing is for sure ...its a great stress buster.
I am often accused of crying at the drop of a hat and shamefully ( if you can say that ) I agree whole heartedly. Not that I make a show of it, but people close to me would instantly know I have just shed a bucket and come. But there has been instances in my life where I have not been able to shed a tear and believe me I have not been able to recover either from such situations. I am not been able to find an answer as to why it happens to a person like me who would otherwise have a tap running. After so many months, when I recall them , I still feel the hurt as much......the wound never heals.
So folks, its good to cry and let out your emotions because tears can wash over any bad feelings, any hurt and even make you a born again..........and start over a new leaf.
What could have been more beautifully explained than, by Alfred Lord Tennyson in his poem " Home they brought her warrior dead " which I would like to share......its one of my favorite poems......

Home they brought her warrior dead:
She nor swooned, nor uttered cry:
All her maidens, watching, said,
She must weep or she will die.

Then they praised him, soft and low,
Called him worthy to be loved,
Truest friend and noblest foe;

Rose a nurse of Seventy years
Set her child upon her knee
Like summer tempest came her tears
Oh my child I live for thee.

Darkness .....!!!!!

While the rest of the house sleeps......she was standing alone in the balcony of her house......in the dark silent night.....with only the moon far away giving her company and as she looks up she feels the moon shine on her face......the cool gentle breeze whisper in her ears.......she listens ....may be its that one voice that she longs to hear......when suddenly she felt that she heard that ever so familiar laugh....she turns around......was someone here ???? She finds no one. A cold shiver runs down her spine. She did hear that laugh...she really did !!!! she was telling her self. She ran to look out of the balcony and in the darkness she thought she saw the familiar figure walking away into the darkness of the night.She called....the figure turned .....smiled at her......waved ......and made a sign......." Till we meet again ........".
She suddenly woke up and found herself wet with her sweat....... she sat up and wondered .......was that a dream????? It could not have been. It was too real!!!!

Missing......!!!!!

I read these lines several times before in a book I had long time back.....but its only now do I understand its true and beautiful meaning and can feel it as much......so thought of sharing it in my space here with all my friends who might have missed someone.......sometime in their life time.


"I DROPPED A TEAR IN THE OCEAN.....
THE DAY YOU FIND IT......
SHALL BE THE DAY ........
I WILL STOP MISSING YOU......" (author unknown)

" SOMETIMES , WHEN ONE PERSON IS MISSING , THE WHOLE WORLD SEEMS DEPOPULATED ".......( Alfonse de Lamartine. )


" THEY SAY WHEN YOU ARE MISSING SOMEONE,
THE OTHER IS PROBABLY FEELING THE SAME.
BUT I DON'T THINK IT'S POSSIBLE
FOR YOU TO MISS ME
AS MUCH AS I AM MISSING YOU....." ( anonymous )


" HAPPY AND EXCITED
I SAILED MY BOAT IN THE SEA OF LIFE.
SUDDENLY ENDLESS ANXIETIES BEGAN TO TOSS MY BOAT
AND SEIZE MY COURAGE.
I FELT SO SAD AND LONELY
AND SILENT TEARS ROLLED DOWN MY CHEEKS.
FOR I MISS YOU......."

The Balcony View.......!!!!!

This was the look of the sky this evening from my balcony.......I was having tea......this time alone......looking out towards the horizon .......my thoughts far away.......recollecting......missing.....longing......wishing for the clock to turn back its hands and give me back those precious moments.......it was one of the most beautiful time I ever had.....moments that are etched on my mind forever........moments that i would never need to share with any one else. They belonged to us......rightfully. I can only say thankyou.

The Weekend.......

It was a weekend.....people at work decided to take a break from the busy monotonous life.....an outing majority voted....and majority won.....I sat in the corner and listened to everyone getting excited about the trip to this place i have not heard of.....i was not even interested to go but again i didn't want to be the stick in the mud......so reluctantly i gave my share to the collection and on a Saturday afternoon i left, to join the others who had already gone off ahead.....As the bus came closer to the destination, i was awestruck with the beauty of the place......the quietness, the landscape, and the fog which hugged me in its gentle embrace......i was mesmerised !!!! " Is this God's creation too ? " I asked my self.......i sat alone on the road side drinking in the beauty around me......and wishing that i had Him here today....beside me......sharing this beautiful place.......and feel the mist around us.....i could imagine how the mist would have settled on His hair......and i would brush it off with my hand......i wish He was here with me today sitting by my side talking in silence......i shivered ....it was a little chilly.....i wished ,.... and i wished so many things and the next thing i just knew what i had to do....i picked up my cell phone and put a call through.....i simply needed to have that Voice with me here tonight......i heard the group yelling out for me.......my time alone ended.......i had to go.....i slowly got up and walked back.....my evening reverie had ended!!!! All that was left of the weekend trip are photographs with a lot of lonely memories.......years later i recall them with fondness.

The " Bouquet "........

The day dawned.......she felt something wonderful would happen today, she didn't know why she had this feeling and what it meant....except for the fact that it was her day off from work. The day started as usual.....the morning chores......the send offs.....and then the house was quiet. She sat in her favorite corner in the balcony, coffee mug in her hand and as she looked across the horizon, she recalled those wonderful days with fond memories. Of late , this has been happening very often. The phone ringing behind woke her from her reverie and once again , it was back to the present. A lot of matters to pay attention to......no more moments to spare for herself.

The day passed off into an evening and yet she waited with anticipation......may be nothing would happen but the feeling lingered on.......and as dusk fell around her, the doorbell rang. There stood the delivery boy with a bouquet of roses.......freshly plucked from the garden....the most beautiful roses as if specially picked.......she stared at the bouquet through misty eyes ....speechless.....and thought "He bothered to send this." She watched the delivery boy leave and managed to mumble a thank you. The moment was etched on her mind forever and held close to her heart ever since.

"Grandma, where are you ".....she heard her grandchild saying. She quickly closed the box, and locked her cupboard. Over the years, the dried up roses still holds a special place........."

Footprints.......

"We come into the world with no identity.......but we leave with footprints behind us "

When we come into this world , our only introduction is a male or a female baby......born into a family where we are later given names, and taught to call mother and father. We grow up loving them , respecting them. We slowly learn of different relations that the society have so aptly given names, brother , sister, cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents and as we grow up friends, spouse......well the list goes on. We are taught and moulded by our teachers in school. The values and principles are imbibed in our young minds right from that time. As we grow older, we only learn to polish them through life's experience and as we move through the different seasons of life , we cross many miles and gather many stones thus turning them each into a milestone.......and then a day comes when the journey ends. What we leave behind are only memories and footprints of our deeds done in our life time.......

Waves........

As I sit on the beach , I watch the waves, big and small .......rise and fall tirelessly.......some reaching the shore, some not touching at all. And it reminded me how closely related it is with life.Our life is a vast sea....our heart is the sea shore and our friends are like the waves that come up in our lifes. It does not matter how many waves rise in the sea........what matters is how many of them touches the sea shore......I treasure all the waves that have touched my sea shore and couldn't thank God enough for one big wave that has swept me over.....the reason why I am here today.

Mystical Sea.......

I always say that among all God' creation, I love most is the the Sea . I love its multiple character

.....I find it gentle, I find it rough ......not withstanding any thing when its angry.......I find it passionate , I find it mystical......I find it magical. I love to feel its waves come and caress my feet, I love to anticipate and see what the waves bring with it , each time it touches the shore. I love the smell of the sea breeze......I love to feel it as it sweeps over my body and mind. I love the sound of it as it rings in my ears. And I am always in awe of its vastness, often wondering what a big storage house it is. By the way do mermaids exists???? I am a fish and I belong to the water sign . Does it make me a mermaid ???? Hmmm!!! wondering....?

The Train........

A phone ringing.... broke the silence of the room......and also woke me up from my day dreams.The caller.....My Friend. Was told that the train just entered the station.....Little did i know that the train I heard passing just now was the same train ......but near as we were, we could not meet. Very rightfully said .....it was the nearest you could get!!! Call it destiny or may be the time was not right. I stood in the balcony as I heard the whistle blow......the train was slowly moving out of the station and I silently bid you Good Bye as I wipe away the mist in my eyes.