A Page From A Diary.......!!!!!!

Dated Forever...... My days with Pooh !!!!

Pooh and I met by chance....one of those things in life that just happens with no explanations. You could call it destiny. Our friendship initially saw all the highs and all the lows ......and many a times it lay threatened on the brink of a breakdown following a stormy session of arguement. But we would come out of it....and on my part emerge even stronger with the bond growing even deeper.....and before long Pooh became an inseparable part of me and my life.....a friend sent in by God himself.....the one person I had always thirst for and so needed. I share the most amazing connectivity......call it a mental connection. I could hear....see....smell....touch.....and feel my friend even if thousands of miles stretch in between us. My day started and ended with Pooh.....my world was Pooh....my dreams were of Pooh. Such was my passion, loyalty and dedication involved in our friendship. We would laugh, cry , fight and then make up again. Days rolled out into months and months into years. I was happy in my small world and wanted nothing more. The more I gave in the friendship....the less it was I thought.....I needed to give more. It was the best phase of my life.....for I had a friend by my side, standing with me.....ONLY FOR ME. Then one day, a dark cloud , suddenly appeared on a beautiful bright blue sky.....threatening a down pour. I could feel the ground slipping from under my feet as I struggled to stand on my shaky legs ....tears rolled down my cheek.......I could see the dark cloud embracing Pooh.
As I stood and watched .....I was left with only one question in my mind ......What did I do to deserve this ???????

Broken Fragments.....!!!!!!

The phone rang and the most ordinary day, turned an extra-ordinary one for her. She heard the voice , on the other end saying " I am here ! ". Her legs gave way . Was it really true ?!!!! Well it was and the next 24 hrs passed away faster then the blink of her eye lashes. So much to say.....so much to talk about.........but time was too short. Before long, it was time to part. As she stood waving a good bye, she felt a part of her lost forever.......... tears came down with out a warning........ she sat down to pick up the broken fragments of her heart.......!!!!!!

Friendship Defined......!!!!!

Friendship so beautifully defined ,I had to share it here, because its what I believe in........

If I happen to show up on your door step crying
Would you care ?
If I called you and asked you to pick me up because something happened
Would you come ?
If I had one day left, to live my life
Would you be part of that last day ?
If I needed a shoulder to cry on
would you give me yours?
Do you know what is the relationship in between your two eyes?
They blink together, they move together, they cry together, they see things together and they sleep together
But they never see each other.
That is what friendship is....!!!!!
Life would be lonely without Friends.......!!!!!

Broken Glass......!!!!!!

I was looking at this glass piece and thought what a waste..... how ever hard you try to mend it........nothing will work , unless you change it........the crack remains forever. Though fragile , it can also be protective in more ways than one...... and people have always compared a human relationship with that of a glass ........and rightly so........because just as we need to handle a glass with care , so also we need to handle a relationship.....(how ever way you name it)........with utmost care. Ever since man has lived in society , he has learnt to build up relations with fellow beings ........some personal.....some not but never the less , a relation or a connection of some sort. In our life time , we get to meet many people, some come and go and yet some touch your lives in a way that you don't have a reason to explain why and how did it happen.......it just happens and before long you start thinking its one of the connections you just cannot do without.......and yes its connection like these that needs to be nurtured with love and care because once its broken.......it can be mended but the crack remains forever. I treasure my connection.....because many a times it has shown me light when there was darkness........and I thank Him for being so generous. !!!!

Time......!!!!!

The question What is Time ??? has been debated for many generations. Science has its own definition in physics but philosophically , many argue that time is not a reality but a concept and may be an illusion.
I have often wondered too what could it really be. We wear it in our hands and yet we cannot hold it as it passes by and slowly slips away into eternity......and its amazing that as we look at the clock, the eternity is actually determined by the movements of the hour and second hands. Each second would turn into minutes .......and each minute would turn into hours .....finally into weeks , months and years. A four letter word that rules mankind and human civilization.....generation after generation......over which no one has control or can have a say . For a next door person like me .......I could easily classify time into good times and bad times..... times of anticipation......times of anguish...... time as a healer......times when I wished the clock would stop because I did not want those beautiful moments to end.......and again times when I wished the hands on my wrist watch would gallop away .....!!!! People would say , her/his time is good or bad meaning astrologically unfavourable........but then isn't that God's way of teaching us all the experiences of life, from which we could emerge a much more wiser and better human.????? I, like most of us, have often stood the test of time......and yes I have tried to come out from it stronger and may be also try to evolve into a better human......but one thing I firmly believe in, is you cannot stop time......what is to happen would happen any way...... So what do we do???? Flow with time......and let time decide for us.????

Tears.......!!!!!!

One aspect of humans way of expressing emotions is through tears.......we see tears of joy and tears of sorrow, we see loud tears and silent tears. But for what ever reason our eyes fills up and we shed a tear, one thing is for sure ...its a great stress buster.
I am often accused of crying at the drop of a hat and shamefully ( if you can say that ) I agree whole heartedly. Not that I make a show of it, but people close to me would instantly know I have just shed a bucket and come. But there has been instances in my life where I have not been able to shed a tear and believe me I have not been able to recover either from such situations. I am not been able to find an answer as to why it happens to a person like me who would otherwise have a tap running. After so many months, when I recall them , I still feel the hurt as much......the wound never heals.
So folks, its good to cry and let out your emotions because tears can wash over any bad feelings, any hurt and even make you a born again..........and start over a new leaf.
What could have been more beautifully explained than, by Alfred Lord Tennyson in his poem " Home they brought her warrior dead " which I would like to share......its one of my favorite poems......

Home they brought her warrior dead:
She nor swooned, nor uttered cry:
All her maidens, watching, said,
She must weep or she will die.

Then they praised him, soft and low,
Called him worthy to be loved,
Truest friend and noblest foe;

Rose a nurse of Seventy years
Set her child upon her knee
Like summer tempest came her tears
Oh my child I live for thee.

Darkness .....!!!!!

While the rest of the house sleeps......she was standing alone in the balcony of her house......in the dark silent night.....with only the moon far away giving her company and as she looks up she feels the moon shine on her face......the cool gentle breeze whisper in her ears.......she listens ....may be its that one voice that she longs to hear......when suddenly she felt that she heard that ever so familiar laugh....she turns around......was someone here ???? She finds no one. A cold shiver runs down her spine. She did hear that laugh...she really did !!!! she was telling her self. She ran to look out of the balcony and in the darkness she thought she saw the familiar figure walking away into the darkness of the night.She called....the figure turned .....smiled at her......waved ......and made a sign......." Till we meet again ........".
She suddenly woke up and found herself wet with her sweat....... she sat up and wondered .......was that a dream????? It could not have been. It was too real!!!!